Major Depression is Hell


Major depression is hell. This post includes an excerpt from a new section I added (July, 2015) to my book on Bipolar 1 Disorder.

Major Depression is Hell

It was prompted from a very touching (to me) review I got of the book on Amazon from someone who has the same form of illness and has lived with it like I have for many years.

Here is the review of my book Bipolar 1 Disorder – How to Survive and Thrive by Christine F. Anderson:

“Molly has done a phenomenal job of making a very complex illness simple. Her clear and concise descriptions of the different phases, moods and manifestations of the illness are dead on accurate.”

“I have read so many accounts that romanticize and even glorify the illness. It’s nice to have someone who has been there and understands and can sympathize and so eloquently put into words that others can learn is a huge achievement. Bravo and thank you.”

Christine has written a memoir of her own – Forever Different: A Memoir of One Woman’s Journey Living with Bipolar Disorder. I recently read it and highly recommend it. You can purchase it on Amazon here.

Do I Deserve Such Praise?

The above review made my day but also made me think a bit.

The book is complete and being sold as an eBook yet I am still getting feedback from friends and other professional writers in lieu of making some minor adjustments before converting into a paperback book. Almost there, ISBN will soon be purchased.

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The part of the review that got me thinking was ‘the different phases, moods and manifestations of the illness are dead on accurate’ part. That is very complimentary. Did I deserve such high praise?

I thought a bit and realized one primary aspect of classic Manic Depression (now called BP-1) I had not described fully – or shared my personal experience with in much detail – was the depressive phase. It is very painful stuff to recall and write about.

The book is on the short end, needed a little more filling out and now I’d found the solution – plus hope it will make the project of more value to whomever purchases it and takes the time to read it.

Excerpt of New Chapter Major Depression is Hell in Book

What follows below is a part of the new chapter titled: “Major Depression is Hell”.

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Depression is as important a topic to write about as is the fact we need better treatments for depression. As mentioned in the section above, many people are suffering – horribly – from severe depression and then mislabeled ‘bipolar’ because they are not being treated successfully.

Just because your depression is not being treated successfully does not mean you have bipolar disorder… and you should thank your lucky stars for that.

My depressive phases of my bipolar illness have been horrific. Best word I can come up with but let me try to elaborate with help from my writing companion Google. A few synonyms for the word ‘horrific’ according to Oxford are: dreadful, horrendous, frightful, fearful, awful, terrible, atrocious, harrowing, unspeakable, monstrous, ghastly and nightmarish. I concur with all of the above.

Heinous was also included in the list, but I’ve already used that term to describe the licensed professionals who are mislabeling depressed individuals as bipolar. Mislabeling with the primary purpose of then being able to drug to infinity these suffering individuals with brain disabling antipsychotic meds. Drugging while ignoring the dangerous side effects these medications have. So we will let that one stand as is.

The depressive phase of BP-1 is called Major Depression or a ‘major depressive episode’. Major Depressive Disorder is a separate classification of mood disorder than bipolar and is also referred to as ‘clinical depression’ or ‘unipolar depression’.

Some people with bipolar illness experience many depressive episodes during their lifetime. Others may only have one incidence of Major Depression during the course of their illness; lucky ducks. The same goes for elevated moods progressing to mania with some sufferers having many episodes of mania while others experience only one manic episode.

The illness Major Depressive Disorder is much more common than the illness Manic Depression. The below is quoted from the Stanford School of Medicine Depression Research Clinic:

“Major Depression, also known as clinical or unipolar depression, is one of the most common mental illnesses. Over 9 million American adults suffer from clinical depression each year.”

“Major Depression is more than a temporary state of feeling sad; rather, it is a persistent state that can significantly impair an individual’s thoughts, behavior, daily activities, and physical health.”

Source: What is Depression?

Those who have never experienced serious depression may wonder why those who have are such big, whiny babies. Just get over it already and on with your life, they may think. We all have difficulties at times and experience loss, disappointment that makes us feel sad. Why can’t you deal with it like other ‘normal’ people do?

Because those with Manic Depression experiencing a major depressive episode or those who have been diagnosed with Major Depression are not like normal people.

They – same as me when overtaken by this mood state – can’t get over it on their own. It doesn’t go away and does not get better. Maybe it will eventually but when it has a stranglehold over your life you cannot fathom having to survive another day feeling so dreadfully awful. Feeling worse than you ever imagined possible and barely being able to move much less think clearly.

You have lost all hope of ever feeling better again. The depression has become an illness needing some form of outside assistance. It is not just a temporary period of sadness or heightened anxiety.

You are sick.

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